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Day 365 Now What?

Posted by themirrenlee on 02/01/2013

Okay, officially, as opposed to reality, this is my final post for the 365 day writing challenge. In reality, I’ve written a few more, but 365 all had the same category in common (I’m just sayin’ …).

So I’ve proved I CAN be disciplined in my writing. I’ve also shown that I can be a complete idiot by not writing anything in total yet.

So what now indeed? I’m reading everything I can find on individual methods of New Year’s resolutions to expand my knowledge base of ideas. Or is it ideas base of knowledge?

Either way it sounds kind of wanky.

All I need to do is simply figure out what I want to do this year.

I know that includes writing, travelling and acting. Maybe coaching in the right conditions. I don’t want to keep doing anything the same way forever, which is what was happening.

Then find a way to get my health to agree to it all.

My first big achievement will be getting on that plane to L.A. (via two days in Fiji) come January 27th.

That in itself will be as huge an accomplishment as writing every day this last year was.

I think I just need to take a deep breath, pat myself on the back for being disciplined, and do a lot more thinking.

I’m just sayin’ …

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Day 362 Stupid Lizards

Posted by themirrenlee on 30/12/2012

I’m better, I think. Still feel like “I’m drowning, not waving,” though, cuz I’m so tuckered out.

In family news: the grandson applied for a scholarship at his new high school in the performing arts stream. Katie suggested he do a DVD to show the Lego movies he makes, plus he also wrote a letter describing what he does and who is. He got the scholarship! It’s for books, uniform and fees (all this in a public school, not private, which I find weird), which will save Katie and David hundreds of dollars.

I always have to share Nicky’s achievements because of the idiot “expert” who told us that the brain radiation Nicky had for leukemia would probably mean he’d never be able to read or write. Duh … in what universe, buddy?

Nicky is at this very moment doing another short film for a contest where it all has to be done in 24 hours. He’s starting to look punchy with about 2 hours left.

Getting started on plans for 2013. I’m going to do a specific layout of objectives. I need a blueprint for building my life. I wouldn’t build a house without one, but my health has made one for my life more than a tad haphazard.

Oh, and for those who are interested, the score now is: Lizards 3, Cat 125. We’ve discovered an interesting fact about the tails falling off. Yes, they do bleed for awhile. Ewwww and yuck.

Why won’t the stupid lizards tell each other there’s a monster living here, and move somewhere else? I don’t want to blame the victim, but honestly, it’s carnage in this house, and they have to take some of the blame for constantly teasing Molly with their very existence.

I’m just sayin’ …

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Day 360 Tooth Fairy’s Gone Rogue

Posted by themirrenlee on 28/12/2012

I think I have a virus. A chesty, sinus filled, dizzy headed, very tiring, and unbelievably irritating virus. Again.

I am convinced that I have a rogue tooth fairy who stalks me and covers me with a virus dust that she and Mr. Sandman cook up in his sleeping dust laboratory. He infects the males and she does the females.

I can hear people asking why they would do that. Well, it’s obvious. She targets those who don’t leave her enough money (20c for a molar? You’re getting the flu!)

But why does the Sandman do it? Again, hello, obvious. Unrequited love for the Tooth Fairy. She’s a sand tease and has led him on for years.

My kids are grown, so I’m going to have to get into some retroactive restitution. I’v filled a jar with water and left 5 one dollar coins in it.

If I don’t feel better tomorrow, I’m getting out the bug spray. Two can play at this game, bitch.

I’m just feelin’ under attack …

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Day 359 My Passports are Cooking

Posted by themirrenlee on 27/12/2012

Finally … I DID it! I fixed the one major task that had to be done before leaving, or I wasn’t going anywhere After having two expiring passports glaring at me everywhere I turned, as their life force steadily ebbed away, I asked my wonderful DIL Katie to help me.

I am “challenged” on many levels, one of which is filling out forms. The longer and more bureaucratic the forms are, the more I start to drool and forget my name.

So Katie filled out the forms for me (one Aussie and one Yankee), and I just signed where I was told …

… while trying to avoid looking at my passport photos. I am truly convinced that they use special government issue cameras programmed to make every-one look hideous. The not smiling bit doesn’t help at all, of course.

$233 for the Aussie Passport (unless) you’re over 75 – then it’s half price). Just pass it over the Post Office counter and it will be mailed back in a couple of weeks. You can pay with cash, credit cards, debit cards, or goats. The Australian motto is, “No worries, mate.”.

The Americans, on the other hand, like it complicated. Must use bank check or postal order only, for $110. Must specifically make it out to “United States Consulate General”. (I’m a tad concerned mine won’t be accepted because Mr. Postman made it out to “USA Consulate General”. It’s the little things that trip us up.)8.

The old passport must be sent in a padded post bag with the forms and check, plus a self addressed Express Post Envelope Satchel thingy (technical term) or a Platinum version of the same thingy. I asked what the difference was between the two thingies, and he said the Platinum costs a lot more. Hmmm …

No mention of Registered or Signed For mail at either end. Hmmm … again.

I just hope I did it all right, and don’t get investigated by Homeland Security.

Wait! Technically Katie filled it out so she should share half the waterboarding duties.

There, I’ve gone and done it. I’ve raised a red flag on my name somewhere in a secret government hideaway.

The waiting starts, and the tension mounts: will I get a renewed passport?

What a sense of accomplishment and relief I feel. I’m still fighting this stupid Flare, so doing anything is a tad difficult, but after it’s done – whoopee! – break out the prescription drugs!!!

I took on government forms, and I’m still standing. Thank you, Katie.

I’m just feelin’ whoopee …

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Day 358 Boxing Day Musing

Posted by themirrenlee on 26/12/2012

Today is Boxing Day in Australia. It is derived from the English tradition (and Australia is part of the English Commonwealth) of opening boxes of presents the day after Christmas. It is mostly a holiday here.

I say mostly because retail comes back with the “Boxing Day Sales”. It’s insane, with people trampling each other so they can buy MORE – as if Christmas shopping wasn’t enough. It’s made worse by the fact that not every mall is open, so the ones that are become sardine cans.

David works for Apple and was rostered on today. He said at one point he tried to buy a coffee in the mall but had to give up because the line was too long.

I’ve never understood the feeding frenzy of shopping. I find it tiring and boring, not to mention scary. This is because crowds bring out the worst in me, and I worry sometimes about my impulse control when faced with enough marauding sardines.

I’m one of those people who are slowly but steadily doing all my shopping online. Not only is it less stressful, but then I get mail! I love mail, but nobody sends letters anymore so online shopping is a nice substitute.

My job now is to get strong for my trip, and that involves as much rest as I can manage. So I spent the day reading a book. A real book, not a download. It’s Patricia Cornwell’s latest, “The Bone Bed”. She’s not my favorite of writers, but I’ve read all of theirs!

I hope tomorrow stays cool, my Flare settles, and I finally send off my passport renewals, or I’m not going anywhere out of Australia.

I’m just not shoppin’ …

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Day 357 Hum Bug Magic

Posted by themirrenlee on 25/12/2012

Growing up, Christmas was always a time of great chaos and hysteria. I was the oldest of 7 over a ten year age gap – 4 boys, 3 girls – and the daughter of a father who hid inside cans of beer and a mother who was always depressed and overwhelmed.

We never seemed to have enough money, even though the father unit worked in middle management, and the mother did part time jobs, as well.

Luckily, the mother was the Op Shop Queen, and on Christmas Eve we had more “stuff” to wrap than Wal-Mart. She was Australian, so she kept up the tradition of a pillowcase on the bed for Santa’s gifts, plus a big gift from under the tree, plus hanging stockings (always with an orange at the bottom?!), plus the family presents to each other on top of it all. Plus the presents for the family coming later on to lunch.

You do the math. I figured out once we had over 200 presents under the tree alone. We had to take a break in the middle of unwrapping because everyone got bored!

As the oldest, I was always the designated Santa helper to my mother. To this day, I have a phobia about wrapping presents.

Also large families, beer soaked fathers and mothers who do their best, but just really can’t cope.

And Christmas credit card balances.

It was all so ridiculous: putting a 40 pound turkey in the oven that my mother had to keep basting all nite, working like slaves to get the meal on the table (the dishes stayed dirty until the New Year), dealing with relatives who were crazier than us, and TOO MUCH STUFF!

Although I love how special Christmas is for children, I eventually lost interest in all the hard work attached to it.

One thing I have always believed in, though, is the “magic of Christmas”, and I taught my kids to have faith in that. Faith that somehow, every year, something happens that simply feels like magic. It might be finding that elusive present, or getting extra money when you need it, or guessing what someone really wanted.

It happened for me this year. I had no interest at all in the whole shebang, but I ended up finding all my presents for everyone really easily, then, after about reaching my exhaustion peak with the heat and humidity, the heavens opened and the temperature dropped on Christmas Eve. And stayed lovely all today.

Katie and David made a great, easy BBQ (with food for this vegetarian), we all got wonderful presents, and I have been able to rest in a cool bedroom.

Bliss.

So I have no happy memories of large families in general, and especially at Christmas. I’m happy, though, for those who do. And sad for those who don’t get the Christmas they wish for.

Focus on attracting the magic. It’s always worked for me.

One year, when I could still stand for hours, I spent Christmas day at a mission giving out food and presents. It was incredibly soul soothing. Giving back always creates magic for the giver.

So, whatever you do today, remember to do it in a relaxed, calm, mode. It will help you, and everyone around you, feel happy and healthier.

I’m just enjoyin’ the magic …

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Day 356 Christmas Eve Heat

Posted by themirrenlee on 24/12/2012

Here in Australia it’s Christmas Eve. I’m in Sydney and it’s unpleasantly hot and humid. The problem with a tropical climate is that it doesn’t cool down at nite like a desert climate (e.g. Los Angeles, where I was born).

Melbourne gets hot, but it then has “a cool change”. The weather is a roller coaster, and the joke is, “You don’t like this weather? Just wait five minutes.”

I’m obsessed with the weather cuz I just can’t get used to a hot Christmas.

However, I did my duty today and trekked through the mall getting my Christmas shopping done. I literally can hardly breathe now due to muscle and back pain, but I’m looking forward to taking it easy for awhile now so that the pain will recede.

I’m making a vow to put on my New Year’s Resolutions list that next
Christmas I will be somewhere with cold and/or snow. Preferably London. Somehow.

I’m holding good, healing thoughts for anyone in pain, physical or emotional or both, and hoping that 2013 will be better for you.

I’m just ho ho ho in’ …

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Day 355 A Christmas Flare

Posted by themirrenlee on 23/12/2012

Turns out I’m having a bit of a Flare. Couldn’t go Christmas shopping with Nicky, which disappointed him, and is one of the major things I hate about having Fibro.: disappointing people when it comes to plans.

I’d better finally be on my feet tomorrow because it’s the last chance I’ll have to finish my Christmas shopping. Thankfully, since I don’t speak to most of my family my list is short!

I have turned into a “Bah Humbugger” when it comes to Christmas. It now just feels like hard work. One thing that doesn’t help create Christmas feelings is having it during summer in Australia. After 43 years here, I still can’t get used to it.

Every Christmas I tell myself that I’ll be in a snowy climate for the next one, but haven’t made it since 1981 in London. It was a magical time that year.

However, the trade off would be not sharing it with my kids, or grandson. Oh, if only they’d hurry up with inventing teleporter machines, a la Star Trek.

I’ll probably be grumbling about Sydney’s weather until I leave. It’s always hot and humid – drives me nuts. It’s one of the main reasons I moved back to Melbourne a few years ago; it’s always cooler.

I’m hoping for two things tomorrow: to feel better and to find a bit of Christmas spirit.

I’m just looking’ …

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Day 354 Hello Mr. Sandman

Posted by themirrenlee on 22/12/2012

My family here in Sydney – son David, DIL Katie and grandson Nicky – last saw me a few months ago. I was mostly bedbound with the Fibro. cuz I hadn’t slept for over 3 years.

I was so looking forward to showing them how much better I’ve been doing now that I’m sleeping pretty regularly.

Unfortunately, I have hit a Wall from the work and stress of the last few days, and I can’t find a door yet to push thru it. So I have spent the whole day unconscious.

I have 2 days left for Christmas shopping, and MUST put my passports in for renewal. So feeling better is a priority.

We’re watching a lovely trashy movie together called, “2012”, about the predictable news at the moment: the end of the world. Such fun predicting the lines!

I’m almost sleep, though, and holding good thoughts for a big recovery tomorrow.

I’m just closin’ my eyes …

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Day 353 I Made It!

Posted by themirrenlee on 21/12/2012

I made it to Sydney. A mighty effort, and lots of drugs, to push thru the pain.

Now I can relax until January 27th, when I leave for Fiji/L.A. It’s great to hang around with my wonderful grandson, Nicky (13).

I’ve been pretty strong, but I must rest now.

I’m just lyin’ down …

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